Life, Love, Sex

Yay! France!

I just signed up for 4 weeks in Nice this summer to study abroad!

Wee!!  I’m so excited!

I’m even going to have my own studio apartment while there.  And you know what that means, right?  Having lots of fun with the local French men! 

Only downside is I’ll miss TES-Fest.  :(  But I suppose 4 other events this year should be adequate, right?  (Winter Fire, Shibaricon, Floating World, and Sex Camp for those keeping tabs).

Now I just need to start earning some spending money!  (I kinda used most of my whore money for my camera, Shibaricon, and my credit card…)

State of Affairs

My apartment is in a sad, sad state of affairs.

It’s just so bad.  So filthy.  Disgusting.  Deplorable.  Abysmal.  All of those kinds of synonyms.

My room is bad.  I haven’t had it in me to really clean up since like December (I never really entertain, so I don’t need to worry much about that).  But aside from my side of the room, the whole apartment is just gross because of my roommates.

First there’s the bathroom area- covered in their hair and weaves and shit like that.  Ew.

Then there’s the living room/kitchen area downstairs- the floor is covered in food and dirty dishes are piled all over from 2 weeks ago.  I’m surprised we aren’t infested with anything.

They have no concept of buying trash bags- or even using the ones I put out.  It’s nuts.  And it’s just so bad me and my (clean) roommate can’t deal anymore.  But it’s just so dirty we can’t bring ourselves to clean it.  Doesn’t help we don’t have adequate cleaning supplies.  The flimsy dorm vacuum just won’t cut it.  And the kitchen floor is so dirty it’ll need some hands and knees type scrubbing.

What I need is someone to come clean this.  And since I’m not really willing to pay for a professional, I should try finding another submissive guy to do it.  Fuck what my roommates think.  He just won’t be naked.   We’ll see…

I just need my apartment to be clean again.

For the Love. Of. God.

My Journey To Being an Adult

So as most of you know, I’ve entered my final year of college. And now that it’s begun, I know it’s just going to fly by, like last semester did, so I’m starting to dip my toe into preparing for post-college life.

Jobs.

And networking.

And trying to learn as much as I can so I can be the best candidate for whatever jobs I apply for.

I sent my first networking e-mail to my step-dad’s ex brother in law. He’s some big hot shot in advertising, though he doesn’t know much about photography, so I’m not sure how much of a help he’ll be. But it’s a start. At least it’ll give me practice in talking to people about networking.

I was also talking to Tilda last night and she offered some advice and possible contacts, so I think she’ll be more helpful. So yay for that!

Her first suggestion was to get a job as a photographer’s assistant. Well, I started looking online on like monster.com and stuff to see what people require of assistants, and dude- I don’t know anything.

I have so much to do before I’m ready to get a job in photography.

First of all, I need to start putting together a portfolio. And not just a Black and White print portfolio- I need to start doing my own shit in digital. Because that’s what the corporate world is. I love my old fashioned stuff, but I’m well aware that I’ll be earning money through digital work. And I’m OK with that. I’m a tech nerd- digital is fun too.

I should practice more with Photoshop- I’m pretty good with it, but I never really did figure out “masks.” And there are all these other photo programs I see people list that I should probably learn.

I think I’ll be getting a demo in Lightbox in a few weeks, so that’s cool.

I also need to just seriously learn more photo tech skills. Which is obvious since I’m only in Photo 2. But I need to really familiarize myself with a digital camera. And I’d love to learn medium format digital (though, it’s probably similar, right?).

Lighting is a huge factor. I don’t know shit about lighting or studio work or any of that. And I really need to be in charge of my learning because my school isn’t so thorough. I think we’ll learn a little about lighting this semester, but not a whole lot. Luckily I still have time to take photo 3 and 4. Not that I intend to end my photo education there. ICP(Internation Center of Photography) in the city looked to have some awesome classes and workshops. I wish I had discovered it in December or earlier so I could have taken a workshop over winter break. Oh well. I’m for sure going to keep an eye out for the summer programs.

I’d like to learn about scanning negatives and stuff like that, just so I know how to do it in case a job should need it.

Of course I still want to develop my skill in film photography as well.  Oy.

Oh man, I can’t believe how much work I still have to do before I’ll be ready to get a job.

Or even an internship!

You know, everyone always asks me what I want to do when I get out of school, and I’m always so tongue in cheek when I answer= “employed, not living at home, not homeless, not a starving artist.”  And really, as an art major, these are things that I strive for!  These are actually things I keep in mind when thinking about the job world.

I would love to be a photographer.  And I would love to be able to take the right steps to getting there (because I don’t graduate and automatticaly get a job as a photographer).

All I know for sure is that I’m putting in all this time and effort to get a college degree and I damn well want a job that makes actual use of it.  No more retail, no temping, no waitressing.  I want a career.  In art.  For as long as I want it.

Oy, becoming an adult is a long, difficult process!

Ugh- Mondays

This semester, Monday’s will be the bane of my existence.

Class starting at 8:30am straight until 2:30pm, a small nap/food break and the back into class until 8pm.

Kill me.  Kill me, now.

Photo Class: Day 1

And so it starts again.

Derek sat across the table from me today.  Somehow the subject of hockey came up around us.

He says while looking right at me, “I would like hockey.  Shoving people up against walls and stuff.  That’s awesome.”

I smiled and tried to cover my laugh.

Oh the naughty thoughts running through my head right then.

Fucking InDesign

I’m making a book about me (to make a long story short) for my graphic design class and Bah. Almost there. Just keep going.

Dude, my life’s kinda boring when it’s not about sex, kink, and my relationships.

So here- a funny comic:

Update on the Work

Alright- here’s an update:

Art history- still need to write the paper; going to ask my professor for an Inc to work on it once I finish these projects (No, I’d never take this many studios again!); study for exam next week

Photography- all finished printing, just need to trim photos and mount (hopefully should take about an hour); need to re-write a paper she handed back to me to do better on (grr!! Just give me the C!)

2D design- For my final project, there are 9 steps and I’ve finished 5 of them.  Will do 6 tonight probably, 7 tomorrow.  And then 8 and 9 by Thursday when they are ultimately due.

Painting- Did 4 paintings- 2 scenery, 2 abstract.  Oh well.  It’s good enough.

Adobe suite class- Still need to finish up the compositions and then edit them into a book.  By Saturday.  That’ll be my main focus this week.

I’m almost there, I’m almost there.  Dear fucking God.  I’m just so tired!!

I’m Not Blogging

I’m just copying and pasting an e-mail I wrote Jefferson yesterday:

I wanted to jump Derek today in photo class.  I wanted to touch him so freaking badly.

There was a casual brush.  I bumped him slightly by accident when he was next to me and I do as I always do and put my hand on his shoulder as I apologized.

Oh.my.god.

I swear there were sparks.  There had to have been!

I literally wanted to run my hands all over him.  And then after that feel his entire body next to mine.  It was just all about touch and less about him shoving his tongue (or cock) down my throat.

And then, I watched him sign up for Photo 2 next semester.

Yes, that’s right.  I get to oogle over him for another whole semester.

Score!

Did I tell you though- he’s 19.  Nine-fucking-teen.  19!  That’s 2 years younger than me!

That’s just nuts.

My Next Week (2 actually) of Hell

Or why I shouldn’t be writing this post right now.

I took 4 studio art classes and and art history.

What the fuck was I thinking?

And I’m an idiot.  I let myself get behind.  I knew in the back of my head that it was going to pile up right about now.  Stupid, stupid, stupid.

Here’s the damage:

Art history- 1 paper that is a week late (as of tomorrow).  Going to buckle down and finally do that tonight.

2D design- oh, all of the 2nd half of the semester’s worth of work.  Basically just going to concentrate on the final project which I haven’t started (nor do I have all the supplies for)

Painting- Need at least 3 (preferably 4, though supposed to be 5) mostly done paintings.  Have one started from September.  Threw one together last night.

Adobe class- Way behind on project- need 3 compositions- all about me.  Easy, right?  I just fucking hate Illustrator.  I’ll just end up doing it in Photoshop.  But then I need to do a “book” with InDesign.

Photography- Where all my enegry has been put this semester.  One would think I’d be ahead of the game here, right?  Well, maybe if I weren’t so concerned with perfection here.  I spent 11pm-4am Saturday in the darkroom (well, including clean-up) and worked another 4ish hours yesterday and basically only got 2 prints (I also developed film), but after doing some editing with my friend, I decided to go in a slightly different direction, so even though I have other prints that I did, I won’t be using them.  And then others that I did I’m going to redo to crop a bit.  And just other shit.

So, yeah.  This is why I’m really not socalizing for the next 2 weeks.

As it is I think I’m going to dig into my stash of uppers which I’m hoping will send me into a manic state of creativity as has happened in the past.  (True story, once I took this medicine in a high-ish dose after missing it for a few days and I didn’t sleep for a day and spent about 18 hours in the ceramics studio without eating.  Yeah.  That’s what I need right now.)

So, if you see a post from me after this, yell at me, ok?  Until like, Dec 15th, really.

And I promise next semester I won’t do this again!  (But I only have 2 studios in the Spring at least.)

Busy, Busy, Busy

So, I definitely didn’t study enough for my art history mid-term today…but I think I did ok, actually.  I forgot some titles (especially of Egyptian works, hence the video…) but I think I may have managed a C.  That’d be awesome.

I’m busy, busy, busy until Sunday night- doing lots of perverted things!  Hehe!

And, I’m feeling better- like 90% (10% remains because of my slight stress about getting my photography project done on time).

Ok, kiddies, updates and stories to come soon enough!