Life, Love, Sex

It’s That Time of Year Again!

March is question month (a popular meme on LJ- but my big following is here, obviously).

Ask me anything and I’ll try my damndest to answer!

Question #18

Who’s the most attractive celebrity you can think of, and what makes them so attractive to you? Male or female, or both if you wish. I’d like to see what your famous-people tastes are like.

Ok, I’ll start with females, as that’s actually easier for me, lol.

Scarlett Johansson would likely be my absolute favorite celebrity in terms of attractiveness. She’s so gorgeous (not just hot) and her skin is just so creamy I want to feel every inch of her. And she’s thin, but not all hard muscle-bodied, so that makes me want to touch her and lay with her even more. Her thighs are just so mmm! and let’s not forget those gorgeous, gorgeous breasts. Plus the plump lips! Yowzers!

Now I’m all worked up, lol.

I also really love Charlize Theron.
I think she’s another classically beautiful woman with such an amazing figure. I remember this one picture of her in a magazine where she’s wearing a backless dress and all I can think about is those beautiful curves (I actually really love a beautiful back on a woman or man).

I guess I have a thing for blondes, because Katherine Heigl is also pretty hot to me.

But you know what else? The three of them seem like they’re probably really cool, nice people.

To veer off blondes though, Catherine Zeta Jones is smoking too. I love the curves on her body. I saw a picture of her in a bikini recently and she just looked all fit but still curvy and I thought how much I want to look like that.

I have to run to class, so I’ll follow up with the dudes I like when I get back….

Question #17

Is it still question month?

Yes it is!! All the way until the end of March!! (But, not that you can’t ask me a question any time of the year, of course…)

Question #16

Will you marry me?

Sorry, love. I’m saving that spot for Justin Timberlake. Mmmm! And especially now that he’s single again, my chances just sky rocketed!

Question #13, 14, &15

A.) If you were to die tomorrow, what would you hope to be remembered for?

B.) What is the most important thing in the world to you? This can be an object, a person, a place, a feeling, or a concept. What is it that you value above all else? Does the answer to this ever change?

C.) Do you like to write letters? I mean actual pen-and-paper letters.

I think if I were to die tomorrow (which I hope won’t happen!) I would want to be remembered for how much I loved my family and friends.

The most important thing in the world to me would be my Mom. I love my mom more than anythig, and really she’s like my best friend. I didn’t write about this, but there was a little bit of a cancer scare with her earlier this month. The doctor had found a lump in her breast and did a biopsy and it came back negative, but they still wanted to do a lumpectomy. When they went to took out the lump, the doctor found a lot of blood vessels leading toward the mass, which is a sign of either cancer or something with a really long name that’s harmless. So, for like 4 days while we waited for the test results to come back, we were on the edge about the 50% possibility of her having concert.

As I said to Jefferson when I told him, “If she has breast cancer, I’ll just die.”

I guess I didn’t write about it because as worried as I was about her getting positive test results, I knew she already had one negative result and that also there isn’t any breast cancer in our family at all.

I think what I value above all else is love and committment. Don’t hate, love. And if you say you’re gonna do something, do it!

Those values have been pretty important for awhile, but it’s possible for them to change in the future, I’m sure.

And no, I’m not really a big fan of paper and ink letters. I’ve been meaning to write my dad a letter, since I’ve only spoken to him once since September, and just don’t have it in me to call.

But getting stamps and finding a mail box are just too much work for me, lol.

Question #12

Do you ever think you are maybe a little too impulsive? This goes for everything from Jefferson, (falling so deep, so fast.) to your tattoo’s. Do you ever think maybe one day you won’t want all that drawing on your body?

No, I don’t think I’m a little too impulsive. And anyone who’s seen how long it takes for me to order at dinner would agree with that.

I love my tattoos and am very glad to have them and I wouldn’t erase them even if I had the chance. And the fact that I want more just goes to prove I’m not regretful.

And there was nothing impulsive about Jefferson either. I can’t control how quickly I fall in love. When you love someone, you love someone. And I wouldn’t want to control it. Because I feel myself starting to fall for Kyle now, and even though it scares the begeezus out of me, it feels so good too.

Sometimes it seems I come off as impulsive yes, because I’ll stew over a decision in my head for months without mentioning it to anyone, so when I change my mind or do something different, it’s out of the blue for other people, but in reality, I’ve already been thinking about it and dissecting it forever.

Let’s not forget as well you only get a section of my life, and don’t see the process that goes into every decision I make. You also don’t know every decision I make.

Soo, yeah…

Next question.

Question #8,9, 10& 11

My lovable and adorable roommate, Noelle asks:

If someone offered you a lifetime supply of any diamond item[s] that you want if you wouldn’t have sexual intercourse anymore, would you take it?

and

Would you rather have sex with one man for the rest of your life that you truly loved, or many men that you didn’t care about at all?

Well two easy questions, though Noelle was trying to stump me.

As much as I love diamonds (and OMG I love diamonds!) I would never trade a lifetime supply of sex for a lifetime of diamonds.

And I would much, much rather have sex with one man that I truly loved. Now and for the rest of my life.

Also, she wants to know: What would you do if I flopped my boobs on your forehead?

Well, first I’d punch you in the face, then give you a purple-nurple. Maybe 2 if you shine that God damned laser pointer in my face!!

And her most thought provoking question for the night: What emotional fulfillment does being so sexual give you?

Um, I don’t really know that it does. I’ve been extremely sexual all my life so I assume that by engaging in my natural instincts, I’m living an emotionally satisfying life because I’m not repressing anything. I’m a very sexual person, and I like lots of different things, things that maybe aren’t so mainstream or common, and embracing it and accepting it allows me to grow as a person over all.

Ok, I really have no idea, but that sounds about right.

Question #7

I’m interested in your bisexual yearnings/searchings…

What’s the appeal to women, what gets you hottest, what type of woman, what do you most want to do with a woman… casual or serious?

What about men? How are they different and what do you want from them that you don’t get from women, or vice-versa…

Do you find yourself attracted to similar or different types of men and women? Why?

Let’s see- lots of points to cover:

In what attracts me to women, I’m about as much of a boob girl as I am a butt girl. I love a nice pair of sexy underwear on a nice round ass, where the undercurve is accentuated. You know that part where the leg meets the ass? Love that.

Also love the undercurve of the breast.

I love the softness of a woman’s body- the smooth skin, the gentle curves of the body. And their plump lips. I love kissing a girl’s plump lips.

Mmm…

Ask a hungry man to talk about food and….lol.

I love women with bubbly, inviting personalities. As I can sometimes be a little gun shy, someone who will at least show enough interest so I know to make a move (or better yet, make the first move!) is ideal for me.

As for what I would do with a woman- anything and everything upto a life long commitment (marriage). I just can’t give up the husband and wife idea I’ve fantasized about all my life. But I’m still very adolescent when it comes to women. I’ve never “dated” any, and I’m only just now starting to develop crushes (beyond just pure sexual attraction).

But it is different with men since I look for the qualities I would like to find in a husband.

I love my men strong (body and mind), protective, engaging, intelligent (more than me at least), caring, creative, etc. You know, the perfect man. But these qualities do exist together. I’ve seen it. Twice so far.

I really haven’t gotten to the point where I look for relationship qualities in women.

But as far as physicality of men….mmmm…I love the way they smell. That muskiness. And their broad shoulder that allow them to just envelop you in an embrace. I love their warm smiles and big, strong hands.

The men I tend to fall for? Unavailable. Simple as that. There’s always something about them that makes them unavailable. Emotionally or commitment wise.

Lucky, lucky me.

Question #6

When you entered into escorting for that brief period. What led you to it? What was going through your mind at the time? Why’d you stop?

When I began escorting, I had just left my retail job at school (earning about $180-220 a week) and had begun applying to more retail jobs closer to my house for the summer. I wasn’t hearing back from any of the places and I was running out of money.

I was still seeing Rick at that time and had discussed the possibility of my escorting with him and he thought it was a good idea. I put together the fact that I was good at sex, so why not get paid for it?

I didn’t hate it at the time. I first started with the crappy agency that worked out of the Meadowlands and I got shit money and was annoyed with their lack of professionalism. I quickly switched to a new agency where I worked out of the Edison area, a lot closer to my shore house. I brought along with me one of the other girls and we always got rooms next to each other and hung out when we weren’t seeing anyone. It was kind of fun. I had a routine and I got to make lots of money.

I originally quit because I ended up telling my parents and my mom freaked and begged (and bribed me to quit).

I tried going back that fall once I was back at school, but I was just starting to see Doofus and it felt like cheating, so I couldn’t do it.

I tried again this summer, signing up with another agency that I knew was very reputable and safe, but only worked one weekend with them because I wasn’t comfortable only getting $125 an hour (even if they did cover the cost of the hotel). Though, in all fairness, I did have some nice guys that weekend.

I sometimes wonder if I’d go back. Noelle gave me a funny face just now when I mentioned it though. I miss the money. Oh God do I miss the money.

I don’t miss sitting in a hotel room all day though waiting for clients. And I don’t miss having to be with gross men I’m not attracted to.

If I were to do it again, I would want to do it independently though most likely. Mostly so I could keep the full cut and not have to sit in a hotel room all day. But then again, I still wonder about what I’d do for an in-call location. So I’m still on the fence on whether or not I’d go back.

I guess it depends on how much my 5K of debt gets to me…

Question #5

What is your favorite tattoo or piercing that you currently have? What addition to your “collection” do you want most? What will be next (even if it’s not the one you want the most!)?

Ooh- great question! Well so far I have my 2 piercings (nose and hood) and my 2 tattoos and I love all of them. But I’d say my cherry blossom tattoo is my favorite because of how sexy it makes me feel and how many compliments I get.

I think I’m done with piercings though. I like the look of little barbells through nipples, but I just don’t think I’m going to ever be able to go through with it. I just get so psyched out by piercings, and that really psyches me out.

As of right now there are 3 tattoos that I’m contemplating.

I’m thinking about a shooting star design on my left inner forearm, similar to this design —>,

with coloring similar to this —>

I like the blue haze, but I would probably get it in yellow with different colored stars (them not all being the same color)

My only hesitation is my wondering if I’m going to want stars on me when I’m 50.

On my right inner forearm I’m contemplating something more abstract. I’ve also considered that fairy I saw at the place where I got my 2 tattoos done.

But if not the fairy, then something along the lines of this:

But obviously made to fit my arm. I’ve also thought about if I want it to curve around my wrist onto the back of my hand too.

I can only get the ones on my arms though if I can find someone who knows how to tattoo over scars.

The 3rd place I want a tattoo is along the side of my right breast, like this picture, but not that tattoo.

God I really want to suck that nipple though.

Sorry. Anyways.

I don’t want it to go up my shoulder though, and I’d want it to extend a bit down my ribs (ouch, I know), and that’s easier to do with my itty bitty bussoms.

I’d probably get that abstract one that’s on the foot if I don’t get it on my arm. Otherwise I’m not so sure.

Ooh! I just thought of a 4th one. I want a tiny little heart on my left hand by the crook of my thumb and forefinger.

That might be the one I get next because I can’t really afford anything nicer for awhile. Plus I want to ease myself into ultra visible tattoos. And ease my parents into it too, lol.

But those are my ideas for right now, we’ll see if I come up with any more.