It’s amazing how many lurkers come out of the woodwork when you put up some protected posts.  Hello lurkers!

This is just a note to say that a majority of posts for right now will be password protected.  Anyone can get the password (except for the select few, and they know who they are),  just make sure you give me a valid e-mail to send it to.  And I’m sending it to a bunch of people, so my apologies for a standard form letter.

Also, this is a note to anyone who’s requested the password and hasn’t received it- try again.  There were one or two people who’s e-mails got bounced back to me, but I forget who.

I’m glad to see so many people are so interested in reading (sorry if it’s not a juicy as you might expect…).  Happy reading!

I’m anticipating I’ll be writing some posts that will be password protected.

Leave a comment with valid e-mail in the e-mail field(only I see it) and I’ll e-mail you the password.

I’m having issues with my template.

I like the look of it, but there’s some back end parts I don’t like.  And I’m not sure how to fix them.

I don’t like how the pictures don’t fill the post section so it causes weird wrapping of words and my Quick Click Comments buttons.

I don’t like how when you search for something clicking for the 2nd page of search results just brings you to the second page of the blog.

I don’t like when you click a tag or category and it just lists the titles of posts rather than just showing the posts.

But maybe this blue one is better?  I’ll have to tinker with the CSS a little bit- I don’t need the categories that big!  And I have to put in the tags.  We’ll mull over this one for a little bit.

I’m one of the contestants for Sinclair’s Sugarbutch Star Contest!

Read the awesome story Sinclair wrote of me fucking porn star Madison Young here.

And then vote for my story here!!

Go vote for me everyone!! Go!! Shoo!!

Look who left me a comment yesterday!

So here we are in April, 2008. Two years since starting this blog. I’m not even sure what to say. (I know, me not knowing what to say…)

So much has happened in my life these past 2 years- it’s hard to take it all in. So many firsts, friends, tears and laughs. Stories upon stories- some told here, some tucked away to maybe be told one day.

Along with the 2 year anniversary of the blog, I also celebrate the 2 year mark of my relationship with Jefferson, who has often played an integral part in the stories told here. Both directly and indirectly.

He was there when I started my 20s as a shyer, quieter girl; already secure in my sexuality, but looking to take it a step farther. And another step farther.

Oh and a few more for good measure.

It’s funny because now I feel like the baby bird who’s started to fly.

For awhile I was dependent on Jefferson to feel safe and secure exploring different sexual avenues. I held his hand tightly as he guided me through orgies, sex show, kink, and sex conventions.

He was my pioneer that would go off and explore and report back, taking me along on his next journey.

But I do well now standing on my own two feet. I navigate orgies just swell (even helping to throw one together last minute)- I survived Winter Fire mostly unscathed (mostly) with him 250 miles away and no where in sight.

Yes we’ve had our ups and downs (and my were some of them intense) but I will always (I hope at least) treasure our relationship and be thankful for how much I’ve grown because of my relationship with him.

I’m actually not terribly interested in being so retrospective and  nostalgic, but I suppose it’s hard to avoid in these kinds of circumstances.

Jefferson said something really great the other week.  I told him how I wished we could go back in time to the fall where we were really solid and happy (considering all the conflict we’ve been having the past few months) but that people were saying it’s not good to wish to go back when it can’t happen.  But Jefferson said that when you have a good thing, you don’t necessarily have to go back, but if it’s good enough, it can carry forward.  I thought that was quite touching.

So here’s to looking forward.

I just started reading Confessions of a College Callgirl, like, yesterday.  And I have to say, I’m quite hooked.  She’s one amazing writer!  A fantastic storyteller and very funny.  http://collegecallgirl.blogspot.com/  You should check her out.

I started reading because I realized I needed some new blogs to add to my RSS reader as some of my staples have gotten much quieter these days and I’m getting low on things to help me procrastinate.

So other than the blogs on my blogroll over there on my sidebar, are there any must read blogs I should check out?

PS. Avah’s coming back.

I don’t want using my real first name to come back and bite me in the butt. Everything’s OK now, but I’m just taking a pre-emptive strike.

I’m making the switch this week, luckily there’s not too much work involved.  For those of you who have written about me, could I please ask that you update it to make sure I’m written as Avah?

Thanks so much, and sorry to be a nudge!

I upgraded my Wordpress by hand today because I got tired to waiting for Fantastico (one click installer my host uses) to upgrade Wordpress on it’s database…

But anyways, so I did it, and I think all is pretty much well, except for that type at the top…

Not quite sure what it is…

Oh well.

If you notice any other glitches, please tell me.

You know, I reserve the right to bring my blog out retirement anytime I want.

Now isn’t that time, but I hold out hope I will one day enjoy writing again.

Two thoughts occurred to me this weekend at Floating World:

After an amazing first night with great, new experiences, I immediately thought, “Damn, it’s too bad I don’t blog anymore.”

But by the end of the weekend where amazing thing after amazing thing stacked on top of each other I was happy to not be burdened with having to write it all down.  I could just simply enjoy it.

I’ll be writing it down though, in my private journal (and I should do that soon before I forget) so I can remember all the wonderful things I did and the various emotions I felt over the weekend.

Publicly though I’d like to say it was a pleasure meeting everyone and I’m so happy to have left with such wonderful memories and lots of new friends!