Family Day and Other Things
Yesterday was a family day. I drove out to PA where my brother lives for my one niece’s birthday party. She’s going to be 6 this July. Can you believe that?? Well, I mean, I can’t. I remember when she was born. Shit, I remember when all my nieces and my nephew were born (the oldest is 11 now).
Also at the party was my other sister in-law and her youngest daughter, who live in Asia. I only get to see them once a year, so it was nice to see them. And I’ll be seeing everyone for the week I’m up at Lake Placid.
I took some great pictures with my new camera that I got for my birthday. It’s amazing how much better this camera is than my old one. Plus my nieces and baby nephew are so freaking adorable. I wish I could share the pics here.
My nephew is really just a sweetheart though. Such a sweet, loving, happy little boy. His mom was about to put him down for a nap and I came upstairs with his blankie (well, what’s left of it) and he wanted me to read with him when I saw him. He picked out a few books and snuggled in my lap as I read and then happily let me put him in his crib after a few books. I love that little boy so much. Being around him always makes me rethink the whole not having kids thing.
He’s still not talking yet. Well, he’s saying Mama now, and some other gibberish. (He turned 2 back in the beginning of March.) And he’s in speech therapy; apparently his tongue doesn’t work the way it’s supposed to. Poor thing.
Works been busy finally. It can get hectic in the dressing room when it’s busy. I have to make sure everything is hung nice for when the other girls get it to put back out, and I separate it by department, I also have to check the rooms periodically to collect extra hangers or get clothes left behind. Plus I help customers when I can with getting different sizes and such. And then handing out the numbers, which I’m not very consistent with. When it’s really busy, I just don’t have time to count.
Nor do I care. And as I put it the other day, “They don’t pay me enough to care.”
With so much busyness, I don’t have all that free time to think.
Which, I’ll tell ya, is totally a good thing.
Not that I’m not still thinking about things at all. But just not for hours on end while I stare at the floor waiting for someone to try something on.
I do a lot of thinking now when I’m in bed, right before I fall asleep. So, it’s a couple minutes at most.
Jefferson says he is sad about the break-up. I can’t be sad. I just don’t think I can deal with it. I haven’t cried since that night (go me!). I just feel like if I’m sad, I’ll miss him. And if I miss him, I’ll want him back, and then it’ll just be a repeat of earlier this year.
If I’m sad, I’ll just want him to kiss it and make it all better. Because that’s what he does for me.
No good.
*Sigh*
Random musings, family | 
Avah | June 25, 2007
By Wendy, June 26, 2007 @ 12:44 am
I’m going to sound like my therapist (God I love that woman. She rocks. Didn’t bat an eye when I mentioned the ories. She was almost…interested. and she’s hot, so I thought about it. But then I’d need to find a new one….)
But just remember to feel. At some point, you’ll still be sad, and thats ok. I still get sad about Franklin, even though I have so much awesomeness going on now. Because any longterm relationship, and the person in it, and are special, and it hurts to lose that. Feeling sad about it is natural and healthy.
And if you want, I can kiss it and make it all better.